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Worth
03:20
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I am alive.
And tonight I feel more alive
Than I have in years.
Breathing life into my hopes and dreams,
Not being driven by my fears.
Because in the past,
Oh how they've steered me astray
To be controlled by what brings you down
Just isn't the right way.
Let it all go.
That's what I tell myself.
And every now and then
I believe I have.
But it's made it's home inside my head,
And it never lets me forget.
It doesn't show any signs of leaving,
But I'm showing signs of accepting that.
I'm fucked up but that's okay,
We're all a little fucked up anyway.
I've spent so many sleepless nights
Questioning my worth.
Am I proud of who I've become?
Have I earned my place on Earth?
What use is a man built of nostalgia
And regret?
I pushed past those thoughts,
I'm not giving in quite yet.
Staggered but determined,
My ambition will never falter
I'll follow my dreams even if it kills me,
I'll be alright.
I've learned to surround myself,
With the ones who push me forward,
Not those who hold me back.
The ones who make me a better man,
Because that's all I want to be.
My will will not be broken
I will not be broken.
I'll push past what holds me back,
And carry on.
Staggered but determined,
My ambition will never falter
I'll follow my dreams even if it kills me,
My will will not be broken
I will not be broken.
My will will not be broken
I am not broken.
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2. |
Bruises
04:18
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She came home every night
Long after last light
Covered in bruises
Each one with a story of
How they came to be
A playful memory
Buried in her head
That kept her up every night
That made her wish that she was dead
She swore she was fine
Told me to pay no mind
But I can see that
She hasn't slept in weeks
She swore she was fine
But I know
I know
She was scared.
A love gone south
Left a bitter taste in her mouth
Taught affection with the back of a hand
She was sorry
She never wanted to be weak
But these days
It just feels like routine
To hide her marks
To play the part of a girl who's okay
She's not okay
Because she knows that deep down
He loves her, but she's wrong.
When the bottles come out
She knows to shut her mouth
Unless she wants to be
Everything
She promised she'd never become
A coward
She wants to be strong
She wants to handle this
On her own
Because no one knows
No one knows him like she does
And the swings and the hits
She's getting used to it
She swore she was fine
She clenched her teeth and she lied
But as I looked her in the eyes
Something snapped inside
She looked back at my and she said
She said she was scared
A love gone south
Left a bitter taste in her mouth
Taught affection with the back of a hand
She said she was sorry
She never wanted to be weak
But these days
It just feels like routine
To hide her marks
To play the part of a girl who's okay
She's not okay
Because she knows that deep down
He loves her but she's wrong
What kind of a man
Shows his strength
By preying on the weak
What kind of a man
Takes pride
In making his lover break
She said she was scared
A love gone south
Left a bitter taste in her mouth
Taught affection with the back of a hand
She said she was sorry
She never wanted to be weak
But these days
It just feels like routine
To hide her marks
To play the part of a girl who's okay
She's not okay
Because she knows that deep down
He loves her but she's wrong
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3. |
Dedication
03:30
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I'm not giving up.
In a world where pretending
Is an acceptable substitution for
Actually fucking doing
Something about a situation
I strive to be a shining example
Of combining hope with action.
I will combine
Hope with action.
I may never make a difference.
I don't expect to be remembered.
But I will continue to try
Even if I'm doomed to fail.
My persistence may be the death of me,
But at least I'll die happy.
My persistence may lead me to my demise.
But I will not die in vein.
I told myself I'd never change,
But I watched everything
Begin to pass me by
I won't be left behind
Afraid to grow up,
Afraid to grow apart,
But I will make the best of
Every moment I have left in my heart.
And I'm tired.
But i won't lay this to rest.
With my head held high.
I will stand against them all.
I'm through with living every day
As if it were my last,
Because my fear of the end,
Takes control of my mentality.
I'd rather live,
As if there was no end to my journey
And if I succeed
I may just make it a reality
All I have to show
For my efforts.
Does not represent
Everything I've done.
Because I've accomplished more
Than just what can be seen.
I told myself I'd never change,
But I watched everything
Begin to pass me by
I won't be left behind.
Afraid to grow up,
Afraid to grow apart,
But I will make the best of
Every moment that I have left in my heart.
I need to move on.
I need to escape the bad,
But the good will always come along.
My hope has come and gone,
But not for long.
I'll always find my way
Back to where I belong.
This is all I have to show
For my life.
This is all I have left
But my dreams aren't out of sight
This is all I have to show
For embracing the changes
And accepting my fate.
This is my everything.
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4. |
Cruel Remorse
04:01
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I've come to grips with the fact
That there are some things in this world
That I will never be able to accept
And if I let them
Control the way I force myself to breathe
I'll never remember the taste, the touch,
The reason I push myself to succeed
All my life I've spent trying to understand where I lost my way
I've always walked the same road
But me feet are starting to sink
My heart is turning cold
Through my life I've learned
That it's not about letting go
It's about getting hold
Of what tries to make you fall
And finding your balance
In a crooked way of living
I found new means of breathing
I'll take what once tore me down
And give it a new meaning
I carry my burdens with broken legs
Thrown upon my broken back
In hopes to one day
Fix what was never whole
Mend what was never meant
To be anything more than
A measure of my frailty
This town is a graveyard for memories.
Of lovers past and could have beens.
I walk these streets with a cruel remorse,
Wondering if my life has taken it's course
And I find myself when I'm lost and alone,
When I force myself to leave my home
To leave it behind,
And be alone with my mind
To lay it all on the line
And admit that I'm just fine
I'm finally learning how to let things go.
To live my life above the undertow
I've been drowing
In what's left of this
This emptiness
I've learned to call my fucking home
Awake but dreaming
I'm learning how to live on borrowed time
I'm taking my chances
I'm taking what's mine
This feeling
Of emptiness
Doesn't own me anymore
I'm destined for something greater
I'm destined for something more
This doesn't own me anymore.
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5. |
Cope
02:56
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I've learned a lot lately
About what it means to grieve
And what it means to feel
Empty
How it feels to fall apart
How it feels to be a part
Of your own downfall
These days
I'm just trying to cope
My insecurities have bound me
And tied me down like rope
Frayed and forgotten
Left sinking in this mess
That we call hope
And I'm afraid
That I too might be forgotten
One day if not already
My lungs are beggers
Left grasping at every petty change
Because I know how I've been lately
Is no way to live your life
So change is all I can hope for
To find a new light
To guide me home
To bring me in out of the storm
To keep me from being washed away at sea
To find my sinking destiny
My love did go south
And stayed forever
Washed away and flooded
Like storm drains in this weather
Overflowing
At least that's how it feels
To have too much too soon
Left with no time to heal
No time to sleep
To get away from myself
To get away from my life
Cause lately it's just gotten too real
I'm just a lost soul waiting for my train
Waiting for my turn to get away
Is there room for one more
On your journey to a different place
Called nowhere
Cause that seems to be my destination
I'm wandering in search of reasons
For my fascination with disaster.
I read these lines like broken ties
To a broken home
I've been flirting with heartbreak
Like it's the only thing I know
I spend my nights wondering
Where it all went wrong
Why everyone left
But if I'm being honest,
I can't say i don't know
Why I ended up alone
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6. |
Belonging
05:45
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I don't know what's wrong with me
I just know I haven't been right lately.
I've been caught between a lack of motivation and consistency
I clenched my fists until I choked,
I gritted my teeth until they broke,
I'm left grasping at the pieces of myself
That I still have left to show
And I can't bear the weight of it all
My everything
Quickly turned to nothing
I found contentment in my resentment
But that's not who I want to be anymore
I spent these last few years
Trying to find a way
To stop all of my colours
From fading to grey
And maybe I'll learn one day
To keep my demons at bay
I may be sinking
But I won't fade away
I won't fade into the background
I won't be just another let down
I'll continue to bury my roots deep
Into a shallow town
I'll find some common ground
And find home in the familiar sound
These songs are all I have left,
They're all that are keeping me around
I don't need a compass
To point me to where my heart is
The melody will always be
What guides me home
And I don't need a shining star
To point me to where my roots are
As long as I've got these songs in my heart
I'll never truly be alone
Melody
Guide me home
Take me back
To where I belong
I spent these last few years
Trying to find a way
To stop all my colours
From fading to grey
And maybe I'll learn one day
To keep my demons at bay
I may be sinking
But I won't fade away
Stop me
From becoming
Everything I promised
I would never be
I've been awake for too long
I just can't keep my head strong
Please take me back to where I belong
I hang in the balance between
Who I am and who I want to be
And I'm not sure what I believe
But one things for sure, I believe in me
With the means to overcome
I'll take what tears me down
I'll take what I'm ashamed of
And turn it into something to be proud of
I have the means to overcome
I have the means to overcome
I'll pick myself up before I'm too far gone
I have the means to overcome
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